Aza's Denial: November 2015

Monday, November 30, 2015

A Visit from Mistress Lilith!

I am still in a daze. I talked with my mistress this morning. She loved the blog, and loved hearing that I was camwhoring for strangers online. (In fact, as long as you all's orders don't conflict with hers, I am to obey them and thank you just like I do hers...) She also wants anyone watching this blog to message her on either xhamster or funnyjunk (she is lilithreante in both places) to give her ideas for how to torture me. Then I found out she was stopping by. Just a bit before she did, I got this message:

I was obviously excited. I made sure that she was properly greeted. I unlocked my backdoor, and when she came in I had laid out all our favorite toys, a drink for her...

And this for her to find when she came in:

And, well... Let me show the before and after of what my stomach (and ass, though you can't see it) looked like:

My stomach started out looking like this...

And ended up looking like this... just halfway through the session.

I got spanked, whipped, teased, and tortured harder than I ever have been before. She shoved the plug in and out. She pulled it out and fingered me. She shoved one of my longest dildos all the way up my ass and fucked me with it. She cropped my ass and stomach, whipped my balls, covered my cock in heating balm, slapped my cock around. She teased me to the edge with her hands, a handheld masturbator, her pussy, and even a vibrating hitachi attached to a cocksleeve.

Next she made me eat out her pussy and ass for nearly half-an-hour, then made me edge myself fucking her pussy one time. The whole time she was reading through my camwhoring, looking at my videos, and teasing me about it.

Then at the end she cuffed me, held me in her arms to hold my mouth shut, covered my cock in heating balm, strapped e-stim loops to it, and put my cock through hell. I screamed and begged for it to stop. I actually cried at one point. And yet I loved it so much I was also begging for more. The one time I actually DID got my mouth free my body was screaming at me to tell her to stop... But instead, a scream of 'more!' came out of my mouth instead. Because I was fucking loving it.

On top of that, she knows exactly how to push my buttons with words alone. She teased me with hints that next session would include a fucksaw... And might even included a dick or two that I'll have to suck just to be let out of the fucking machine. And right at my peak, right as I hit the worst edge of the night... She told me that I will NOT be cumming. Not just not cumming tonight... I won't be cumming during our entire play session until february. If I do, she will make that session look like a picnic. And what scares me the most is that even knowing how horrible the punishment would be--even knowing that I'd have electrodes turned to max, a fucking machine raping my ass, and a crop beating my balls--I was already so tempted to do it. I know the punishment will push me past my limits, I know it will nearly break me... And after seeing how much I LOVE getting used roughly today, I think I actually might WANT her to do that to me.

I'm starting to think she's just trying to push me until I break down and cum without permission just so she can do that to me... And I think that might be the sexiest thing anyone's ever done to me. I am unbelievably horny. I'm not some sexual newbie getting enamored with his first experience here. I have done every manner of kinky, depraved thing in my life many times over. But that session has left me more worked up than anything I've ever experienced. I have about half of it on video, but it will take me some time to edit it all. Here are a couple more pictures in the meantime...

And remember, you all reading this are now my doms, too. Please do not hesitate to order me around and use me as you see fit. I will not view it as a chore. I will love it. I think any shred of sexual dominance has been beat out of my system, and now I simply crave the domination of others.

Thank you to everyone who has followed my adventure so far, I can't wait to continue sharing my experiences. There will definitely be SEVERAL lovely, entertaining updates over the next few days. And thank you so much for the lovely session Mistress, and for allowing me to share it with my friends! I hope there will be many more to come!

New orders from my miss.
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If anyone who reads this could fill out the poll, I would be *very* grateful! Aza's Denial Poll Here's the direct link, I'm not sure how well the embedded post is working. >.>

EDIT: Yep, it doesn't seem to be actually letting people vote, so go to the direct link (click here) instead! In the meantime, here are some of the photos I took for the gay board last night!

Sunday, November 29, 2015

E-Stim and Anal

Woke up this morning and checked my phone to find a new order from my mistress...

It's nearly thirty minutes later and I still feel phantom tingles on my cock after that... It's so sensitive and I'm not even allowed to touch it...

The First Time

Oh, since this blog has gotten a bit of traffic besides my miss, I figure I should also post the video that started it all. My first ever recorded dom session at Lilith's hands!

We're thinking of re-visiting that particular scene... But I've been told the post-orgasm torture's going to go on a lot longer this time. >.>

Miss has a hard time remembering my entire toy collection when picking out my daily tasks, so I thought I'd snapshot it. It'll also save me time, because well... It's a bit difficult answering the question 'what kind of toys do you have?' People don't tend to understand what I mean when I say 'all of them.'

Jesus, I feel like a slut when I line them all up like that. I've been collecting for almost a decade and taking good care of them, I swear! It's not as bad as it looks... >.>

Camwhoring

Day 2 was camwhoring for me... I went online to my favorite gay message board and followed the whim of everybody who would order me around. I could lie and say I did it to please my mistress, but it turned me on so much letting them position me all over my room like a sex toy... Knowing I was making them hard, knowing some of them were probably masturbating. As much as I love my mistress, I still crave someone to suck off or fuck me sometimes too... >.> I'm at 25 recorded edges now, though I admit many others went unrecorded. They snuck up on me while I was on my knees, stroking and waiting for the next order...

It's unlike me to be so blatant. Not that I'm normally shy, but I was just blatantly slutty all night for anybody who would toss me a compliment or an order. The playful 'shame' just turns straight to arousal now. I don't think I have it in me to turn down any reasonable sexual commands from anybody, online or in person. It's become instinct to pull off my cock as I approach the edge each time, and if I've gotten this slutty on day two, I've got some interesting days ahead of me... My edge count is up to 28 just from writing this and picking out the pictures...

Saturday, November 28, 2015

Day 1: IcyHot, panties, and buttplugs!

Dropbox link for now, will embed the video once xhamster finishes it!

https://www.dropbox.com/s/37laz1a18soeoij/My%20Movie.wmv?dl=0

My first day of edging... The holidays gave me lots of time to go crazy with it, and I got my first order from my mistress that morning to use IcyHot during my edging for the day, and to continue sleeping with a toy in each night.

The censoring goes away a moment in when I get my face out of the shot. Skip forward a bit if you want to see me in panties and plugged up (3:40), and forward even more if you just want to see my fucking my ass with that plug when I wake up in the morning. :)

Here's some preview pictures, too. Thank you miss... I look foward to your next orders. >///<